Ani ohev et otha

I blew it.

2005-04-11T21:30:00.000-07:00

I blew it.

I hope Ichthus does something for me next week.

I'm an idiot.

2005-04-09T20:18:00.000-07:00

I havent done any sort of drug for almost 2 years.

And I almost blew it last night.

I need to stay strong.

2005-03-23T18:06:00.000-08:00

I dont know why I'm writing in here exactly.

I guess an "update" would be relivant. Eh?

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Usually, in my life, things are great, and then something hits, and its terrible, once again. (This is a never ending pattern)

But, lately. I've been neutral. I dont know why. But, I have been.

My grandma is in the hospital, barely making it.

Thats probably the only thing I'm concerned about now.

Even though, my step..uh.."dad" lost his job.

Jaimie, on the other hand, is back with us, and hopefully out of drugs.

Jamie (the boy) and I have been seeing a lot of eachother lately, I guess.

I guess, a part of me is "happy", and a part of me is sad.

They cancel out and make neutral.

At least I'm alive, I guess.

I'm going to Icthus.

I hope that will do something for me.

I'm also trying to get a job, so I can go to camp this year.

I feel like I need to.

I dont know why, I just do.

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Well. I think thats about it for now.

I think I'm going to start updating this, rather than xanga.

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I know I havent been around lately.

But I do miss you guys.

And I hope to see you soon.

Until then.

Take care.

Alana.

A Perfect Circle.

2005-03-20T20:23:00.000-08:00

A perfect circle is most definitely one of my most favorite bands of all time.

"The Noose"

So glad to see you so well.
Overcome and completely silent now.
With heavens help,
You cast your deamons out.
And not to pull your halo down
Around your neck and tug you off your cloud
But I'm more than just a little curious
How you're planning to go about
Making your amends to the dead
To the dead

Recall the deeds as if
They're all someone else's
Atrocious stories
Now you stand reborn before us all
So glad to see you well

And not to pull your halo down
Around your neck and tug you to the ground
But I'm more than just a little curious
How you're planning to go about
Making your amends to the dead
To the dead

With your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping
Your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping down

Your halo slipping down to choke you now

2005-02-05T22:26:00.000-08:00

I can see you
but you can't see me
I could touch you and you wouldn't even feel me
Wait a second and you'll settle down
I'm just waiting 'til you really let your guard down
You're relaxed, you're sublime, you're amazing
You don't even know the danger that you're facing
If I'm quiet, I'll slide up behind you
And if you hear me, I'll enjoy trying to find you

Which one?....
http://www.bmezine.com/tattoo/A50202/high/bmegl016836.jpg
orrrrrr
http://www.bmezine.com/tattoo/A50202/high/bmegl018534.jpg

love.

2005-02-02T18:28:00.000-08:00

"Untill the 20th century reality was everything humans could touch, smell, see and hear. Since the initial provocation of the electromagnetic spetrum, humans have learned that what they can touch, smell, see, and hear is less than 1 millionth of reality."

-Incubus

More than likely, next year, I will get to play snare on the drum line.

I want to cry, I'm so happy.

This means you all must come watch me.

Take a closer look at yourself.

2005-01-31T21:26:00.000-08:00

I wrote this on my xanga.

I was reading my bible the other night.

I'm really ashamed of myself.

I havent thought clearly for a year.

Thats going to change though.

I'll never be like that again, ever.

I hope.

Yay.

2005-01-29T20:20:00.000-08:00

So Liv's party was el-mucho fun-o.

I'm glad I've gotten close to all you guys again, because I know I can trust you. I can't seem to find that in too many anymore.

Anywho, tonight was grand.

Jess picked me up, we went to school for pep band. But since only about 12 showed up and about 7 were percussion, we decided to just go to steak-n-shake. David, Jess, Jen, Stephanie, David number 2, Erika and I all went to steak-n-shake.

Then we went to Toys-r-us. They were closed, but there was this REAL hot guy cleaning off his car..he worked there..and I kept waving and he'd just look...I did that 3 times and only got looks..THEN we did donuts..and left..but when we got above or on the highway or whatnot we looked down and I told Jess to honk and she did..and then I waved for a 4th time and FINALLY he waved back. Then he jumped in his car and tried to do donuts. Ours were MUCH better.

Then Jess, David (number 2) and I went to Chuck-e-Cheeses because everyone else was going to wal-mart.

So, luckily Andrea was working tonight so she gave us 105 tickets for 10 bucks. We were only supposed to get 50..yay! anywho. We played, got some pictures, left, then did donuts in the parking lot.

Then we met the rest at Wal-mart, and it just so happens that they were playing Alladin 2 on the big screen, so we sat down and watched for a bit, then left, and did more donuts in the parking lot.

And now I am home. Oh joy.

But yes, I do believe that was my day..enjoy kids.

Love ya.

Yeah.

2005-01-27T22:15:00.000-08:00

So yeah.

I deleted all my old posts because they were depressing.

I think I'm better now.

So yeah.

I'll update more on this thing.

Love.